to: Maryam Syazana Yuserrie

dear khalilati,

please don't be sad. i'm always there for you even it always seems like i'm not. you know how much i sucked at this mushy-mushy-feeling things right? so, DONT U DARE LAUGH at my attempt.

adik,
i'm sorry that i sucked as your older sister, that i wasn't such a good sister, and for the fact that i used to back 'him' up before.i realised now how much it hurts. so, i won't accept him more that friends as long as u won't approve, however, if by god's will we were meant to be together, i hope you wont hate me.

about the stresses you are going through, you should know better that to gain happiness u have to go through several trials. that way, the fruit wud be 10x sweeter, insyaAllah. that way, you will know that you being there on decemberis because you worked hard forit . please don't be sad, la tahzan khalilati, Allah knows u can handle the trials and errors, Allah loves you, that is why Allah test you. be calm and go through it with Allah's help and guidance. may it bringsyou closer to Allah thatu already are. insyaAllah

adik,
i'm sorry that i wasn't at home when you were sooo little. that you have to go through the life of an 'only' child. sorry that i practically stole your 'childhood' weekends. because you have to visit me at the hostel EVERY week.
 i'm sorry that i was always rude to u, calling you names, but you should know better i don't mean it AT ALL!
no matter how many times i bullied you, you should know i still loves you, and i soo don't know what i did that i deserve such sister. u should deserve better sister but Allah gave me the chance to have you, alhamdulillah .. i'm really grateful i have YOU as my sister and not sumone else.

adik,
La Tahzan, please don't shed tears unless it's tears of repent to Allah. coz it hurts me even if it seems like i wasn't affected at all. i hate seeing you cry because i don't want you to be weak like me.

adik,
anytime you need someone to talk to, i am always there, i will always stand by your decision as long as it doesn't go against Islam

lastly, adik, AKAK SANGAT SAYANG ADIK



adik, akak dah geli ddaaaahh niee..
adik, nanti jangan gelak terbahak2 tauu!! akak penat2 nangis masa type bnda nie..adik jgn pndai nak gelakk ekkhh..